Thursday, October 2, 2008
phew.. i'm damn lucky the day is over sia.. so many relative's houses have been visited today that i have practically lost count of how many i've been to.. though it may just occur once a year, i feel as if i've been doing it the whola year sia.. and strangely, this particular hari raya does not have that
'oomph' that it usually has.. i'm not really sure what it is, but i definitely know that something is missing.. maybe its due to my recent loss of a beloved relative.. maybe my recent failure.. i don't know.. i really don't know.. the funny thing is, when i expressed my concern regarding it to my parents and grandparents, they said the same thing.. it was only my grandfather that said that maybe my
ibadah for the month of ramadhan was not sufficient for me to feel the blessings of this much celebrated occation.. maybe its true.. maybe not.. everyone knows that God is most forgiving.. for all i know, he's forgiven all of my past sins and allowed me to start anew this year.. who knows?? well, i for one know that i don't know.. hahaha.. rubbish sia.. tell you all what, i'll postpone my re-enactments of my f1 event to tomorrow as i am feeling pretty bushed tonight.. futhermore, i definitely need my rest as i will be continuing my visiting tomorrow.. so, for now, ciaosters..
